Honestly, I feel like I complain too much. Or maybe just too many things are happening and I can’t help but feel frustrated. Every week has its obstacles and the same people constantly irritate me. Lately I can’t help but feel that I’ve had enough “downs” in life, but the same question hits me again, who hasn’t? Maybe I’m overexagerating and being dramatic but sometimes enough’s enough.

For the first time, I ditched my recital today, or called in sick. I’m tired of having to stress over performances. I have another one in a month so fck I don’t care. I’m srsly considering quitting now, there’s no chance of me becoming good. My thumb sticks out in the wierdest positiong and I can’t even reach a nine. I hate being the only one left so why can’t I quit like everyone else?

At first I thought this summer wouldn’t be as bad. But I’m sick of the same excuses from people. Ah fck it I don’t care anymore. You’ll realize soon that I’m not your fckin back up, sooner or later I’ll be gone.

Chem final + W.E. auditions this week & SAT II history. Everyday seems to repeat itself: school, sleep+, practice horn/piano, homework, study for SATs, chatting online, and the occasional coloring time(yes that is my new addiction other then baking). I want something exhilirating & different for once -___-