As of March 25, 2009, I feel like starting a blog. Not because I have nothing else to do, well maybe, but I’m constantly forgetting the positive things that have happened to me and instead I remisce over what I should have put behind in the past; maybe blogging might help me to remember what’s important.

Today was quite tiring, due to lack of sleep & studying. Time management has become a heavy issue this year, I don’t even want to think about what’s going to happen to me next year. Hopefully, things will fall into place at the right time & I won’t have to dread the next two years ahead of me.

Lately, I keep forgetting the good memories I’ve made since I moved here, or maybe I’m forcing myself to believe that I could have been happier if I stayed in Socal. Two fcking years, & I still can’t get over it. Why does it seem that I’d have less to stress about things if I went back to my old home, my old school, & my old friends? I don’t know if it’d be the same if I did go back, but the chances of that happening are slim. It seems as if I’m trying to force myself to fit in a place where I don’t belong. I feel stuck, except the past is the thing that’s keeping me from going forward. People that constantly tell me to let go and move on aren’t always the ones that understand. I’m so sick and tired of having to deal with the same problems that I know I wouldn’t have to if I could go back. I don’t know, things just haven’t been as smooth as I wanted them to be and going back just seems to be best solution to everything.

Despite that issue, school hasn’t been too stressful - I lied, I need to start reorganizing my priorities. So far I’ve finished all my tests this week, hopefully :D I’m just hoping this friday won’t be bad, or maybe it might add on to the list of bad fridays ever since the 13th:

1. Bird pooped on me/failed my chem test.
2. Some girl stepped on a full milk carton behind my foot & splashed it all over me.

I don’t want to complain here too much, but maybe writing my feelings out can help organize my thoughts instead of being one big mess in my head.

-Arg, battle tickets sold out >:l